Untuk part I, (https://iiumc.com/kisah-klcc/).
It’s been a month. After I had my heart broken into a million pieces selepas saya find out yang Nuh, the guy I was dating for 6 months is a single father to 2 children. And after saya undur diri in view he claims he can’t commit at that current time.
Saya baca banyak comment dari my previous post Kisah KLCC and ikut banyak good advices.
To the ones hoping for an update; private investigator result telah keluar. Nuh adalah who he is, divorced and working as an engineer. Nuh decided to keep quite and I respect it.
Note bene,
How to mend my broken heart :
1. Solat dan berdoa kepada Allah.
Mula mula tu, nak mengadu pun tak tahu nak cakap apa. Tangan dah tadah tapi lidah kelu, hati pun kosong , telan air liur 2 min ter diam so selalu saya teruskan doa untuk family yang saya biasa buat. Jarang saya mengadu atas sejadah so it took time . Tapi lama lama, sikit sikit dah ok. Minta petunjuk, minta kuat kan hati.
2. Busy yourself.
Kerjaya saya memang pun sibuk jadi part ini tidak la ada masalah sangat. Tetapi weekend saya memang free. Saya pergi pedalaman untuk medical camp dan jika tiada program Saya jalan jalan shopping or watch movies. Shopping can be therapeutic untuk sesetengah orang. Kali ni mahal jugak la incident patah hati ku hehe. I tried hiking, haha tak pernah pergi hiking before haha. InsyaaAllah bulan 6 ni saya akan apply sambung master d UMS. Doakan ya.
3. Selepas setiap kesusahan pasti ada kesenangan.
Itu kan janji Allah. Percayalah. Saya dpt offer tukar post oleh boss and awaiting letter. Saya juga terima panggilan untuk pergi ke Bangladesh untuk misi kemanusian buat kali kedua. Alhamdulillah
4. Set goals baru dan sayangi diri anda.
Goal tahun ini :
First umrah on my birthday in May.
First apartment InsyaaAllah.
Sebenarnya lama sudah tak free from dates and men. Kali ni memang tawar hati untuk pergi dating balik. Tak planning pun in the nearest future. Tiba tiba focus diri sendiri dan baru perasan , lamanya tak care pasal diri sendiri, asyik pikir pasal orang. Kerja pikir pasal patients, personal life pun pasal another person. Now focus to me and my family. Then I realise bertapa lama nya saya neglect myself. Even though giving joy to others make me happy tapi jangan lupa juga sayang diri awak. I now got back into writing and reading for self indulgent.
5. Spend time with family
My family jenis sempoi and cool. They are my support system. Nenek is sick so I and my mom took leave and now we are caring for her d kampung. My family pun banyak bawa saya keluar.
6. Forgive yourself
Ini penting . Maaf kan la diri for being hopeless romantic or mengharap or naive. Jangan la be too hard on yourself sebab apa yang terjadi. Just be yourself dan belajar dari pengalaman ini.
Moving on from my Kisah KLCC.
Of course saya belum fully move on, now saya drive slower sebab pandai membawa perasaan, paling awkward bila panggil next patient n nama baby tu nama nuh. My heart still squeezes sometimes and I truly miss his friendship he has once offered tapi I believe every story has meaning of it’s own.
I once look at him and see everything I ever wanted in a man. And now that he’s gone I look myself and find that I’m the one whose not whole. I had so many missing pieces that I wish he would fill in . It was unfair . I felt complete w him cause I was not. Ini masa nya I fill up my kekurangan dengan benda benda baik.
Thank you semua yang berikan saya comments yang baik baik.
Chin up!
– S
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