Alhamdulillah after so many months of thinking and self-reflect, I’m 100% recovered for good. Both mentally and physically. Fully stable to run and continue my precious life.
I thought that I couldn’t make it to this very end, but here I am to bring this to its end of wasteful years with someone unworth fighting for.
I’m fully aware that I was different compared to who I am 6 months ago. Through my years of life, I realized that I tend to jump to a human being to fix my broken piece, but it’s different now,
As a servant I should realize earlier that once u put that broken pieces back to Allah, everything will be fine, He will take care of your heart, your soul, and your life.
I felt way better now, what made me so proud of myself is the countless doors that I had opened for myself to explore the world with tons of life goals I had set now.
I never experienced thinking deeply about what best for me before, but alhamdulillah this very one trial had pushed me to re-construct the priorities in my life, dream higher, set bigger plans, and work harder every single day.
I am so shocked by how a single person that had to bring unimaginable pain had influenced me so much to improve myself.
Besides, I’ll become naturally aware of people, on when to giving chances, and prioritize to always protect myself better than before.
What I had learned during the journey,
1. Don’t make someone a priority who treats you as an option.
2. If you know you should be walking away, you have to do it.
3. Set your expectations high and settle for the one who always exceeds them.
4. The more it happens you learn to build resilience and coping strategies.
5. Time helps, but only if you help yourself.
6. Don’t blame yourself, surround yourself with people who love you.
7. Do more things that you love.
8. Try new things.
To sum up, before you are attached, trust, and are into someone, you must love yourself. Do acknowledge your worth. Embrace your insecurities.
It is only then that you can find some form of happiness, and isn’t that all you need? And I swear: it will pass when you least expect. It’s just feelings, eventually, they’ll go away.
– Ex Sabah Dari Neraka (Bukan nama sebenar)
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