Forbidden Love

Good day everyone, so from the title it’s actually easy to say, cinta terlarang because it is about religion… Yes you can guess right, cinta dua agama.

So starting with the character which is me, Libra (male), Chindian Muslim and she, Taurus (female) Chindian Roman Catholic, and this all starts when we meet because what we believe answers from our prayer. What do you think? Interesting?

So let me tell you how I met her. I met her from dating apps which is honestly tak sangka akan jumpa same people like me (Chindian) and we decided to met after 2 hours on phone. The night goes well we share almost everything about life about, about past relationships, about studies and so on.

And what so ever I thought I met a twin I never have because almost our favorite thing and passion are same. What that time I dont think will fall in love with her. Because saya selalu doa untuk jodoh yang sama minat.

The things is, saya tak beritahu Taurus yang saya ni Muslim and we never open this pun sebab waktu tu I’m just open to know and met her sebagai kawan. Tetapi after seminggu contact, I decided to went out with Taurus for whole day like from pagi sampai malam because we both plan to be done as to do list.

Walaupun dah seminggu berhubung tetapi waktu ni Taurus masih lagi tidak tahu mengenai agama saya sebab I never show her Muslim sign sebab dalam chat pun saya tak pernah minta excuss untuk stop for solat dan selalunya solat bila dah masuk waktu itu pun cuma beritahu dia yang I need to do my work.

Tetapi waktu kitaorang keluar tu, saya cuma solat last minute untuk combine sekalikan solat seterusnya macam last minute Zuhur so 10 minit lepas tu Asar and she not even notice pun kalau saya menghilang lama.

Sampai part we going to eat petang tu, before eat she cross and pray while me just tunduk kan kepala dan tadah tangan di bawah meja sambil baca doa makan. Masa makan saya terlintas untuk tanya dia, “what do you pray before eat” and she said she pray to God and given all thank you for the food and the time spent.

She also ask me and so saya jawab, “berkatilah kami dalam rezeki yang Engkau telah limpahkan kepada kami…” belum habis cakap she cut me and said my pray sound like something she heard before this from school. I know she starting sus with me. I’m just cover with giggling.

Masa pun berlalu dan jadilah 3 minggu kitaorang berkenalan. Next day she ask me to accompany her doing her assignment kat mcd and we stay there until 2am – 3am something like that. After she finish her assignment we decide to habiskan masa di situ dengan berborak and play game truth or dare.

Game tu semuanya okay ja sampailah my turn and saya pilih dare. Nampak macam bodoh kan? YES MEMANG BODOH PUN PILIHAN SAYA TU. Sebab Taurus minta saya untuk tunjukkan kepada dia my lesen memandu. I know one day this benda ni akan terjadi, dia akan tahu kebenarannya.

I still remember that time I almost begging to her yang I dont want to share with her and lied to her about my gambar lesen buruk tetapi hakikatnya saya nak sembunyikan identiti yang sebenarnya. Tetapi disebabkan Taurus percaya apa yang saya cakap, jadinya saya kalah dalam permainan tu dan kena belanja dia Mc Flurry.

Remember tak kat awal cerita ada beritahu about answer from our prayer… waktu ni kitaorang tengah borak pasal crush and we describe kan our crush macam mana. How I physically describe my crush ni Taurus from face, kind and personaliti. I bet Taurus pun tak tau yang saya ada crush dengan dia.

But after that she ask me what I always pray about my jodoh. Saya jawab, “Tuhanku tolong lindungi bakal isteri ku daripada lelaki yang mahu menggunakan dia”.

Taurus ni daripada sejarah relationships dia memang not nice and all she did to her ex likely make her feel like nobody want to be with her like something wrong with her. Sebab tu dia selalu doa jumpa lelaki yang tidak mengambil kesempatan pada dia.

Without we both realise, our answer depan mata masa tu. Waktu tu juga saya beli bunga untuk bagi kepada dia and beritahu dia yang saya suka dan cintakan dia.

Time flies, we both in relationships dah 3 months and disaster strike. 2 minggu sebelum Ramadhan, dia tahu agama saya. Sebelum tu nak beritahu ni bukan nak buka aib tetapi part of the situation dan jadikan pengajaran.

You know when bukan mahram berdua mesti ada yang ketika iaitu syaitan. Waktu tu kitaorang baru je lepas tengok late night movie and hujan waktu tu, waktu on the way ke kereta we both hold hand and run to the car.

Waktu sampai kereta like usual saya akan bukankan pintu untuk dia masuk dan lepas saya duduk dalam kereta before gerak mesti akan pakaikan dia seat belt.

Waktu tengah pakaikan Taurus seat belt suddenly my face so close to her and I can feel her breath and her lips that time look tempting I want to kiss her but I stop and say “Astaghfirullahalazim”

Waktu tu dia terkejut and ask me to repeat what I’m just said. I know what gonna happened next. For the first time we into a big fight. Dan untuk pertama kali juga saya nampak Taurus cry alot. Saya beritahu semuanya pada dia, my real name (sebab masa tu saya guna nickname) dan agama.

She dont believe me until I show her my lesen memandu. I really love her and she really love me. She a kind person. Just the reason she dont like Muslim is because her past experience with this Malay guy we called him Ahmad

Taurus punya pengalaman dengan Ahmad ni merupakan salah satu sebab dia tak nak dengan Muslim sebab waktu dia berkenalan dengan lelaki ni, lelaki ni cuma beritahu dia yang dia sudah bercerai dan tiada isteri. She like him so much sampaikan dia sanggup buat apa apa je untuk lelaki ni termasuk lah convert agama.

Tetapi Allah mahu tunjukkan sesuatu kepada Taurus ni, kisahnya kawan Taurus ternampak Ahmad ni kat luar dengan perempuan what she thought his sister but NO.

Kawan dia tahu yang dia ni isteri Ahmad when she decided to meet her and ask directly and what suprised is she actually his wife. Isterinya Ahmad tu pula tak tau pun yang Ahmad ada couple dengan Taurus.

Jadinya lepas Taurus tahu yang Ahmad masih beristeri, she decided untuk clash and move on. But now when she know I’m Muslim, she dont like me. Hate me. It is my fault because keep it from her. Jujurnya I still love her but I believe she need time.

Now Ramadhan I believe miracle will be happen. Just pray for me, for her. Saya selalu doakan yang terbaik untuk dia walaupun saya tahu ini merupakan cinta terlarang.

Terima kasih kepada pembaca kerana telah membaca luahan hati ni.

– Libra (Bukan nama sebenar)

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