Assalamualaikum readers.
I keep this thing for years. Almost 10 years I supposed. Need to share with people as I cant keep this anymore. And I think here is the best place as I will be anon to you guys. And yeah, pardon my languages.
I lived in an extended family which consists of my ayah, my ibu, my siblings and my grandparents. Literally, I was raised by my grandparents as my parents were away; they were working away from my siblings and I. Im; so called my granny's favorite grandchild. Nenek yg sponsor my 4 years of degree.
When I was in Standard 4, my grandpa passed away and when Im in Form 1 where I was placed in a bording school, my granny moved to 'sekolah pondok'. Masa tu fikir "oh, nenek nak fokus ibadah".
But then, when I have the chance to go home, I will ask my ayah to pick my granny home too. That time, I saw everything. Where my ibu being so rude to nenek. Bila nenek ada kat rumah sekali, ibu suka marah marah nenek. Small thing pun perang mulut masam muka. Small thing tu mcm nenek tanam pokok cili belakang rumah dan ibu marah.
Benda ni berlanjutan sampai sekarang. Nenek jarang dah nak ikut balik.
Hari tu convocation, sy dapat pass VIP where 4 persons are allowed to be in the hall. Sy bgtahu ibu, nak bawa nenek. Tapi sy pulak kena marah. Ibu tak nak nenek ada sekali. Sy rasa terhutang budi dgn nenek. Nenek yg ajar sy alif ba ta, macam2 nenek buat, nenek bagi. Bukanlah ibu ayah tak sumbang apa2. Tapi sy rasa bersalah la kalau nenek tak ada sama masa my graduation day. Dan sy mcm tersepit masa tu. Kalau sy bawak nenek, sy derhaka dgn ibu. Ayah sy cakap, ikutlah cakap ibu kalau tak nak jd mcm ibu. Dan sy tak bawak pun nenek 
Sebelum masuk hall, nangis nangis sy minta maaf kat nenek.
Utk tebus rasa bersalah sy kat nenek, sy pulun bawak balik robe dan ajak nenek pegi studio ambil gambar tanpa pengetahuan ibu.
Tadi sy cakap kat ibu, Isnin ni sy nak jumpa nenek. Dah lama tak jumpa nenek. Tapi ibu mcm sindir 'Haaah pegi la nak duduk sana terus pun tak apa. Tak payah balik. Nanti bawak balik perangai nenek tu sekali buat apa'.
Sampai sekarang sy tak faham apa salah nenek. Dan sy tak tahu nak buat apa.
– An N