Assalamualaikum readers.
I keep this thing for years. Almost 10 years I supposed. Need to share with people as I cant keep this anymore. And I think here is the best place as I will be anon to you guys. And yeah, pardon my languages.
I lived in an extended family which consists of my ayah, my ibu, my siblings and my grandparents.
Literally, I was raised by my grandparents as my parents were away; they were working away from my siblings and I. Im; so called my granny’s favorite grandchild. Nenek yang sponsor my 4 years of degree.
When I was in Standard 4, my grandpa passed away and when Im in Form 1 where I was placed in a bording school, my granny moved to ‘sekolah pondok’. Masa tu fikir “oh, nenek nak fokus ibadah”.
But then, when I have the chance to go home, I will ask my ayah to pick my granny home too. That time, I saw everything. Where my ibu being so rude to nenek.
Bila nenek ada kat rumah sekali, ibu suka marah marah nenek. Small thing pun perang mulut masam muka. Small thing tu macam nenek tanam pokok cili belakang rumah dan ibu marah.
Benda ni berlanjutan sampai sekarang. Nenek jarang dah nak ikut balik.
Hari tu convocation, saya dapat pass VIP where 4 persons are allowed to be in the hall. Saya bagitahu ibu, nak bawa nenek. Tapi saya pulak kena marah. Ibu tak nak nenek ada sekali.
Saya rasa terhutang budi dengan nenek. Nenek yang ajar saya alif ba ta, macam2 nenek buat, nenek bagi. Bukanlah ibu ayah tak sumbang apa2. Tapi saya rasa bersalah la kalau nenek tak ada sama masa my graduation day.
Dan saya macam tersepit masa tu. Kalau saya bawak nenek, saya derhaka dengan ibu. Ayah saya cakap, ikutlah cakap ibu kalau tak nak jadi macam ibu. Dan saya tak bawak pun nenek..
Sebelum masuk hall, nangis nangis saya minta maaf kat nenek.
Untuk tebus rasa bersalah saya kat nenek, saya pulun bawak balik robe dan ajak nenek pegi studio ambil gambar tanpa pengetahuan ibu.
Tadi saya cakap kat ibu, Isnin ni saya nak jumpa nenek. Dah lama tak jumpa nenek.
Tapi ibu macam sindir ‘Haaah pegi la nak duduk sana terus pun tak apa. Tak payah balik. Nanti bawak balik perangai nenek tu sekali buat apa’.
Sampai sekarang saya tak faham apa salah nenek. Dan saya tak tahu nak buat apa.
– Anak dan Cucu (Bukan nama sebenar)
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