Salam Alaykum para pembaca yang dihormati sekalian,
Saya Bunga lagi sekali menghantar confession kerana berdasarkan confession yang lalu saya dapat membaca perspective of my relationship from the third party point of view.
Kadang-kadang being in the situation ourselves, kita dikaburi pandangan mata sendiri. Kenapa tajuk itu last straw?
Hal ini kerana, last straw disini bermaksud yang terakhir. Perkara yang saya kira im at my edge and this is my last straw.
Again, please allow me to write in English as I can pour my heart out better in this language.
So, few days ago i saved a puppy. Anak anjing berumur dalam 1-2 months. Kecik lagi montel minum susu. Kereta depan office reverse terlanggar anak anjing tersebut.
Ralatnya saya sebab pagi tadi saya baru tegur anak anjing tersebut cakap good morning dekat dia.
Colleagues pun sama borak-borak pasal anak anjing tu cakap gemuk ikut bapak dia sebab mak anjing kurus. Hahaha kesian bapak dia.
Saya cepat-cepat turun office and pergi tengok anak anjing tersebut. Dah terbaring atas jalan tar. Saya cuba angkat nak alih atas rumput dia menjerit kuat. It was 8.30AM when it happened.
Knowing vets would only open commonly at 10.00AM I got so anxious. 8.45AM I scooped her up and my colleague went along to the vet.
The saddest thing is that there were many passerby who are malay and muslims yet they DARE to just dismiss the condition of the puppy. I feel devastated with their action.
So poor puppy got all the treatment needed and she is all good now. Alhamdulillah. SO here comes the issue. I called my partner later that day after work just to share the incident.
He is more concern on how i touched the puppy, how i brought her to the vet. He didn’t even ask how she is and all. Kalau babi pun I akan tolong. I’m serious.
This is me. And its just so hard for him to except that. That is why this is my last straw. Ignoring the sick and poor puppy will kill me.
Because I can do something in my power to help it and if I choose not to, it will haunt me! And I don’t think I can push myself further to change just to be accepted by him. He is a nice guy indeed no doubt but I can’t.
I’m scared to hurt him. Sayang, if you do read this. Do know that I have tried so much but there is only so much I can change. I’m sorry. I can’t be the ideal partner for you.
Our views and principles keep on clashing and we fight over and over again and I keep hurting you. You deserve to be happy.
– Bunga (Bukan nama sebenar)
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