assalamualaikum
saya seorang doktor. abang saya doktor. adik saya doktor dan seorang lagi bakal doktor. so? we are quite aware about mental illness
guess what?
bukan sikit yang depress pasal kena buli. be it body shaming, school bully, kena buli kat tempat kerja, buli di rumah. semua.
and it is not okay to bully others by justifying that as a ‘training ground’, nak ‘bermesra’ and whatever $*%¥€. NO. different people have different level of acceptance, you cannot say “i survived! so dia mesti boleh”. unless you are in a military service then it is another story.
I was in a girlschool for few years before I left to mrsm. lucky me, my cousin who was once in the same girlschool as mine already warn me their ‘tradition’. I entered school with mind fully prepared. im not gonna give in if people treat me like sh*t.
memang ada pun senior yang pandang slack, kena cop kerek la, sombong la. kena circle dengan team senior & di bash. benda tu biasa. I just smile, give salam and walk away. kalau diorang suruh and at that time I was super busy nak lari kejar cop toilet ke, I will still smile, say sorry and run away. diaorang yg sakit hati. I do it in a ‘good manner’. paling teruk pun I jeling balik je. I never curse, I dont want to lower my standard as to theirs.
beg kena letak siput babi la, lipas la, selipar and toiletries hilang la, pernah kena cengkam kat leher & sikit lagi nak kena tumbuk. nasib ada org halang. drama kan. siapa cakap perempuan tak ganas oii! cuma tak ada scene tarik2 rambut je sebab bertudung.
I focus on my study. benda2 buli ni jadi motivation untuk score pmr and apply pindah sekolah. at last they give up and be friend with me. I lagi kamceng dengan seniors banding those yang kena buli.
eventho I can say I survived school bully, I totally understand those who doesn’t. walaupun dah baik dgn seniors & maafkan diorang, perbuatan diorang yang salah tu tetap saya benci.
darah dah berhenti tapi parutnya masih ada.
bila masuk sekolah baru, I prefer jadi loner sebab takut kena buli lagi. I keep my circle small. hati jadi kering, keras, susah nak percaya orang. sampai masuk uni, jumpa seniors yang super baik tahap malaikat baru rasa ok sikit. makan tahun juga. terfikir nak quit jadi doktor sebab doktor kerja in a team. meanwhile I nak kawan dgn org pun takut. pembuli sedar tak kesan2 ni??
apa yang I belajar sebagai mangsa buli? I learn to say NO. know your right. bila kerja, manusia2 pembuli ni sentiasa ada. but they do it in a different way. kalau masa sekolah iron baju sendiri pun suruh junior, bila dah kerja nanti tugas sendiri pun pass kat orang. pandai mengelat. lepas tangan. tapi mulut pandai. yelah, dah belajar sejak kecil kan.
sekarang ni dah tengok sendiri patients akibat dari mangsa2 buli, lagi kesian rasa. some jadi pendendam, pemarah even penjenayah sebab history jadi mangsa buli. hidup dalam tekanan. yang self-harming tu tak payah kira la.
wahai pembuli2, anda pernah fikir tak anda ni penyumbang kepada lahirnya penjenayah? pembunuh? ke anda rasa anda ni penyumbang kepada pemimpin, leader2 yang hebat?? lol. kelakar sangat.
ingatlah walau bertaubat nasuha macam mana pun, selagi tak minta maaf sendiri dengan mangsa2 anda, merangkak lah nanti kat akhirat cari mereka.
#saynotobulliying #stopschoolbully #stopnonsencetraditions
– dr anne
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