Should I Confess?

Hi people, you know what? I have feelings toward my lecturer! Arghhhhhhh, the worst feeling ever! Tapi nak buat macam mana, dah attractive di mata saya…

Okey, let me story. Setiap tahun, subjek Kimia memang sorang lecturer je mengajar, tiba-tiba my year kena dua lecturer. The main lecturer kata lecturer second ni—which is yang I suka ni—single plus herlokkk (main lecturer tunjuk gambar).

So, next week turn dia mengajar, but only for a few weeks je. I got interested sebab sangatlah kelakar, lepastu jiwa pulak macam Gen Z, jadi ngam lah. Tulah satu-satunya kelas yang I tak mengantuk, I swear to God! Hahahah.

Dengan penuh keberanian, I chat tanya all about my subject. Buat-buat tak faham je sebab nak teruskan conversation and nak dia save number I. Hari kedua baru dia save number I, hehe. Pastu I post status WhatsApp, muka je hahaha.

Lepas tu, korek lagi betul ke dia single—in a proper way lah, I respect okay. We keep in touch, not every day, but dalam seminggu ada dua hari, sometimes sehari. Semuanya bermula dengan tanya about subject, lepas tu tanya lain hahaha.

I pernah bagi Instagram I dekat dia, suruh check my works. If wrong, let me know. Ha, macam tu. Lepas tu dalam seminggu, dia tak tengok pun lagi. I faham, dia busy. And then I switch to private account.

Lepas tu ada random people follow I, but it’s not him. Sebab apa? Sebab bukan nama dia. And yang I tahu, dia ada dua account je—I dah stalked dia dulu, hehe.

Bila I request, dia tak nak accept. Lepas tu, semakin hari semakin syak… ni macam dia je. I try to find out. I dapat bukti kukuh that’s his account sebab ‘About This Account’ dia on Instagram sama date dengan his Twitter.

And… he knows what I ate, which I posted on IG story only. Btw, dia ambil tahu ya dengan apa yang I posted, even the post is from last two days.

I rasa dia dah syak yang I suka dia, sebab tu mana-mana hints I dah bagi. But from his side, nak buat macam mana sebab dia holds title.

I bagi dia pudding caramel, wehh! Lepas tu, tak expect dia akan ambil gambar I dengan pudding tu. Ohh, I wish pudding tu dia, hahaha. Lepas tu, I ada exam subjek dia. I suruh dia datang, dia tak nak. Tapi dia suruh janji buat dan jawab elok-elok.

Bila I dah janji, dia pula tak datang! Yang datang, main lecturer je. Lepas tu, dah habis jawab, I pergi dekat main lecturer, suruh kirimkan salam I pada dia. Hahaha, berani betul ya!

Main lecturer jadi orang tengah, ya. Hahaha. Lepas tu, dia kata, “Siap ada kirim salam, ek?” Hahahaha, saja je kirim salam sebab tak datang, kan?

I tak syok sendiri, weh! Kalau u guys tengok conversation tu pun, u guys rasa ada chance, hahaha. Sebab all my friends say the same thing, even my male friends. Dia reply WhatsApp laju, tengok my story with details, follow me… arghhh, my delulu.

I nak confess sebab member suruh, termasuk his friend, hahaha. I chat his friend lah sebelum nak confess—tanya betul ke dia single? Okey ke kalau confess?

I nak confess awal sebab takut melepas, hmm. Sepatutnya tahun depan, which is my last year as a student. But idc, I nak buat jugak! Kalau dia reject, I cuba lagi bila dah habis belajar nanti. Malu weh kena reject! I dah bagitahu kawan-kawan, hahaha.

Oh btw, is it okay kalau I umur 25 dan dia late 30s? Hahaha. Kalau I tahu umur dari awal, taklah kot I cuba.

Ni masalahnya tak tahu, lepas tu dah suka… jadi I tak kisah. Dia jelah. Kalau dia reject, antara dua sebab je—I rasa sebab umur atau sebab student.

Pendapat u guys macam mana? Dia tahu ke saya suka dia? Boleh confess?

– Hasuri dahlia (Bukan nama sebenar)

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