Salam semua, this story will be a bit long. It’s a story about myself and my husband who is now my ex. The story goes like this..
We were happily married after 2 years being couple, we didn’t go for engagement cause we felt like its no use to do so after all. We don’t want to wait another few months then married so both sides agree to just proceed on marriage.
I know him through some internships where I join in his company , he was quite a funny guy.
A kind man, gentleman to say. He was really charming I’m telling you, many of my colleagues even tried him but don’t know how he can be with me back then. Thinking how our couple memories make me smile back then but now it’s just cries.
After we got married for two year, I couldn’t pregnant at first we tried but there shows no avail to the attempts. He was still there with me, love and care me even when I was at my lowest.
Alhamdulilah my boss was understandable and gave a few weeks for me to rest for my mental health.
I don’t know back then my husband was really the whole husband material. Sometimes my mom would organize family gathering. There was once, we went chalet for the gathering. Right now when I think back, I should’ve follow my guts..
But what to do? I was in love badly with my husband and trust him my whole world.
It was night everyone was outside celebrating some of my niece’s birthday. I didn’t see my husband around so I went look for him, I go inside to check and saw he came out of the room with my sister.
“Sayang?” I asked him why my sister is with him. He says it was coincidence since I tend to share same product with my older sister.
So my sister wants use some of mine cause she forget bring her. I trusted them, I gave a smile and nodded held my husband hand walks outside.
That was the first sign that I didn’t realize cause who would suspect anything?
Then there’s another occasions my husband had to go for business trip. I know he always go business trip cause he is some kind of high department person.
That year, I still can’t pregnant. I know he wanted a baby so badly. I didn’t think properly back then but I remember my sister also had business trip but she says it’s to another country. No one suspected anything at this moment.
Many times I realize that this coincidence have become too often, like how they went to lunch together they say they terserempak. Then how my sister have almost same things I have which my hubby brought for me.
I started feel like suspicious about my husband, he was still doing his role as a husband indeed. Pay my nafkah like always and affectionate. But there’s like something he was hiding, firasat istri.
I solat minta pertunjuk Allah, I nangis kat sejadah tu sebab kenapa I masih tak boleh pregnant. I nak kasi my husband happy, I nak tengok dia bahagia jugak even if my husband says that he doesn’t care as long as I’m with him. I’m really thankful towards Allah.
Berapa hari selepas I doa to Allah, I slowly dapat mimpi jawapan tapi I thought it’s just mainan syaitan. Orang cakap mimpi waktu 3am gitu itu semua pertunjuk tapi I tak percaya sangat.
Then this what makes me opens my eyes, I saw my husband went lunch with my sister that day. I followed them somehow without confronting , I went to his office actually to tell him that my pregnancy test shows positive. But that day it turns to a whole nightmare.
I saw my sister wrapped her arms around my husband’s arms. I saw how my husband treated her like how he treats me, I gasp and tears up there.
I immediately went home told my boss I was sick. That night, I didn’t confront him. I want more evidence, he cuddle me like ways sayang me, care for me.
I check his phone that night, I don’t like checking my spouse phone cause I trust them. I saw his recent call and message is my sister, I istigfar panjang Nisa when I saw the text. It was all lucah and like they’re a couple.
I place his phone aside after taking pictures of it with my phone immediately goes to the toilet and cries. He cheated on me and deceive me with kindness of his. He makes me look stupid there, I cried while rubbing my tummy.
I thought of confronting but no. I don’t want to for now. I told my best friend, sanggup seorang kakak buat adik dia gini.
Days passes, I haven’t told him about my pregnancy. I used ask him if he has anything tell me but he answer me no and ask why
. I shakes head, I want cry in front of him but I pull myself together and just hugged him. I say I love him very much. He smiles and macam biasa care and sayang me.
This months passes, sampailah satu hari tak tahulah mungkin Allah yang gerakkan hati I.
I followed my husband after I went for my check up, I saw my husband with my sister entered hotel. He told me that night he has to OT (I didn’t go work cause I ada appointment but I tell him I was sick).
I followed them to the hotel room sees they went in the room baju kemas. I stood there for as long I don’t know, I hear everything of what they did. They terlanjur.
When they keluar, they surprised seeing me there. My tears betrayed me. It started rolling down my cheeks fast as I just can’t believe, I saw how baju diorang yang kemas terus dah macam kena cakar kucing. “and all this while.. I thought I could trust you.” I said to him.
Fast forward since I had all evidence. I files for divorce, I felt disgusted. My mom find out, of course she was mad. She even halau my sister out of the house since my sister still staying with my mom.
I cried when I was at the court after it was sah we divorced. I minta maaf to him when I was his wife I failed to be one of the good wife like he wants till he had to cheat on me with my own blood sister.
After the divorce then he find out I was pregnant, he wants to get back. I say no, my heart has really broken into pieces. I am okay if it’s other women but my own sister.. I couldn’t.
I couldn’t handle the pain, I shut myself out for a few months sampai my mom have to take care of me macam I really tak bermaya. I thanked my mom and my besties for staying with me throughout my ups and downs.
My darkest moments. Now my hubby is my brother in law, I still was hurt but I’m happy to see my sister has finally get what she wants.
A perfect husband, he is indeed perfect one but when they had their wedding I didn’t attend. I just want be away, my mom didn’t want accept too but I told her I’m okay if that’s what both of them wants.
Fast forward, Alhamdulilah now my son is 2 years old. He is smart, handsome like my ex but I didn’t mind. He willingly to give duit nafkah, I accept it sincerely.
He at times do come to my mom house to see my son but at times my son doesn’t know him and tend cries, he did feel heartbroken but I can’t do a thing about that.
I was pregnant alone, I was all alone. I independent myself with the help of my besties and mom. I remember my mom accompany me to give birth to my son. I felt like giving up but she pushes me tothe very end and now my beautiful healthy son out.
To my mom, I thanked her so much for being there. Even though when I was having my shutting people out moment, you still keep coming to me and want be by my side. Ummi I love you so much.
I may seem cool but only Allah knows how broken my heart still when we go family gathering. Even some of my families members understand if I don’t come cause who can handle my ex kahwin with my sister?
I’ll be the strongest women my son would ever see, I want him to be raise be a good man and treats women kind. I want him to be love fully and care with. Even if I’m working Alhamdulilah my boss understand my situation.
My work colleagues all supported me. My ex? He quitted the job and started at another place cause he can’t face them all. He terlalu malu he once said. But whatever it is..
I hope their marriage till Jannah and that he or she won’t hurt each other like how my ex hurts me.
Thank you for reading my whole story.
– Tiara (Bukan nama sebenar)
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