It has been 2 days and i still got my emotion swing as hell. It was so fast..
I dont know what should i call and describe. And right now tak tau nak mula dari mana.. All feeling were fucjing fucking mix.
I dont have many friends in my life. I dont trust people easily. Until one day.. I met Nadiah Rosli. Anis Farahin. Azzurieana Zubir. All in life.. That was the first time i felt how sincere it was having a bestfriend..
I have a small circle of friends and family. All i have is mom.. Sister. Mia. Fayyadh. Helmi Ishak. And all of cats around the world.
Cats means a world to me. I have many cats back at home. I loves feeding them who lives on the streets. Why not. Prophet Muhammad s.a.w loves cat too.
And last day.. I realized how cats affected my life. I have a male cat. Probably a teenager. Named Abang. He was super hyperactive one. Ekor kembang. Badan gebu je. Kaki gemuk. For sure manjee yakmat. I took him since he was a tiny lil baby.
I love hugging him. Kiss his fatty belly. He loves sleeping on my belly. And he was so fat. Kuat makan sangat. Sepuluh kali bagi makan, sepuluh kali makan. Kahkahh.
Till one day. My neighbour called me outside. Im shocked sangat. He lay beside my mum’s flower vase. With one of his leg broken. Not sure kena langgar ke apa. Kaki dia dah kena makan dek ulat sampai nampak tulang..
I carried him inside the house..Seeing his broken leg broke my heart enough and i cried too easily. I brought him to the veterinar asap. And when the doctor check up on him.. They said he might lose his leg.
Kuasa maggot kan. Ulat lalat taguna yang sangat rakus makan kaki gebu dia sampai hancur tulang..
It was the messy day ever in life. Hari paling serabut dan serabai dalam hidup. Lewat pegi kerja. Waktu rehat masuk lewat sampai cashier back up bising. Pegi kerja pakai shawl pinless. Pakai kasut socks tak pakai. Pakai handsock lama yang dah berbulu jumpa dalam kereta.
Masa nak bawak dia pegi vet tu berbelah bahagi jugak. Sebabnya memang betul tengah kelam kabut nak pegi kerja. I must choose whether kucing atau kerja. Finally i choose him..
Lewat pegi kerja.. Masuk rehat lewat.. Dapat warning letter. Or else kena buang kerja. So what. Thats mean rezeki aku sampai situ saja.
For me Allah is the best planner. Whatever happened, at least i have given my all.. The best of me to see him alive.
I mean if destiny put me to lose him.. It’s okay. Sebabnya aku dah usahakan semampu boleh. Kalau aku pilih kerja.. Hari2 aku kerja. Tapi dia? Itu saja peluang yang aku ada..Kalau aku biar, aku yang berdosa. And aku akan usung dosa tu sampai aku mati.. Aku akan hidup dalam penyesalan..
It does broke my heart enough bila petang tu aku pegi tengok dia. And he was ready for an operation. Dah bius, tapi si hyper ni kuat jadinya dia masih gigih menjilat bulu. Baru gaya nak lali, dengar pulak aku datang.. Terus segar mata dia.
So doktor bius sekali lagi. Baru la dia sleep. Kaki dia busuk.. Ada ulat kecik2 tu. Masa tu to be honest tak geli langsung untuk temankan dia masa operation. Yang ado cuma marah yakmat dengan ulat sampah tu.
Aku menangis teringat lincahnya dia panjat sana sini. Wondering perasaan dia bila dia bangun nanti kaki takde satu. Siap potong jahit semua. Bayar bil. And then i carried him on my arm. Rasa sebak sangat.
Balik tempat kerja, orang semua usha tak puas hati. Im sorry.. Im so sorry sebab ada menyusahkan u gais. Tapi sumpah selama ni takde pun aku berperangai tak elok macamni. Siyesly. Penah ke aku ponteng. Penah ke aku masuk lambat. Seminit pun tak penah tau. Im always on time..
Tapi tulah. Manusia kan. Buat baik 10 kali tak nampak. Buat jahat sekali je tu la yang dipetik tak habis2. Em..Tak kena dekat dia boleh la.
I knew some of u might said. Ek eleh poyo minah ni kucing je pun. Kan. Tapi believe me. Orang yang sama minat suka kucing macam aku je akan paham.
Anyway.. Thanks for reading and do pray for my cat fast recovery.
– Qayla
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