Am i crazy ?

I think i have a serious heart problem. Not like a disease but more to spiritual heart problem. The thing is, I don't really know the purpose of my life. Everything seems useless. And I always feel like I'm being treated unfairly. By people. By God. Yes. This is the serious-est problem that I'm having now. I don't know… I kind of never get what I want. Tolong jangan cakap bersyukur la dengan apa yang kita ada, bersyukur yg kita masih hidup, dapat bernafas, ada kaki, ada tangan.. Etc etc. I know. I know!! But masih ada rasa dalam hati ni………. Sebab I never get what I really want. No matter how hard I tried to get it.

I pray 5 times a day. But then I still i don't get what I want. When i see my friends yg x solat penuh but still managed to get everything they wanted, I feel like it just so unfair for me. I know they are being tested with what people say as 'istidraj' (pardon my spelling if it is wrong). But then when I skip my prayer, I still got nothing. It makes me feel more unfair. I mean, when I am doing the right things I did not get what I want, But when I do the wrong things like skipping my prayers, I feel like my life getting worst. So I know that I shouldn't skip my prayer because it just makes me feel worsen. But then, whenever I perform ibadah I didn't do it sincerely, i did it because we had to or we will be punished.

I think I need a shrink… I'm depressed…..

– LoLa

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12 Comments

  1. U are not crazy but yes u do have some spiritual issue imo.
    U dont know the purpose of ur life?instead of searching,why dont u make one?change the world,conquer the world,promote world peace..idk..choose.

    Life is meant to be unfair thus is why we have afterlife.u dont usually get what u want,u just get what u get.u know the answer already,syukur…probably u never truly lost something u took for granted all this time thus is why u felt this way.try finding beggars at pasar malam and try asking how their life got to that point.u see what i mean.

    Allah’s rezeki is meant for all.regardless muslim or not,solat or not.that is the almighty’s business and not for us to question.dont skip ur solat.even if u are not sincere,just do it.the simplest analogy i can give is like going to class.even if u dont understand the subject,at least u get attendance mark.

  2. ada sebab kenapa Allah tak bagi apa yg kita nak. sesuatu yg kita nak tu mungkin tak baik untk kita dunia dan akhirat. sebab tu Allah tak kasi. selalu la bersangka baik. Kalau Allah bagi apa yg kita nak, nescaya hancur dunia ni. Contoh, pak imam nak kapal beso 2 padang gol. then Allah bagi. bilal pulak nk kapal beso 4 padang gol, yg si siak pulak nakkan kapal beso 10 padang gol. mau tersekat penang port kalau gitu citanya.. huhu.

  3. Life is not about getting
    Life is about giving

    Life is not about what we are going to get
    Life is about what we are ready to let go

    Life is not about fair or unfair
    Life is about how we live the life at it best

    Life is not about getting the best things
    Life is about how we perform the best that we can

    Life is just a test my dear

    Remember, you,me,them..all of us face the same situation sometimes

    Allah miss you my dear
    Dont keep the feeling (burden) in your heart.
    Keep it with Him
    Because He is the All Mighty

    Al-Ra’d, 28

  4. Yang aku yakin, everything happens for a reason. Sangka baik. Ade sebab Allah tak bagi apa yg ko minta,mungkin tak elok utk ko atau pun Dia simpan bila tiba masa terbaik.

  5. Ada hikmah kenape Allah tak bagi..jangan berputus asa pada rahmatNya.Semakin susah ujian tu, sebenarnya semakin sayang Allah pada hamba tu. Allah mahu kamu hanya berserah padaNya.Kemungkinan besar Dia tak bagi kemungkinan benda ya kamu nak memudaratkan kamu.Pernah terjadi dengan saya.Saya nak sangat2 sesuatu.Baru saya sedar kenapa Allah tak bagi masa tu.Kerana apa yang saya nak memudaratkan saya.Percayalah Allah Maha Penyayang dan Maha Mendengar.Kalau kamu bersangka baik pada Allah, dan solat keranaNya, in shaa Allah, kamu akan nampak hikmah itu.Allah tidak pernah menzalimi hambaNya.Percayalah.Saya bercakap berdasarkan pengalaman saya.Untuk ubat hati kamu, dengar ayat Al-Quran guna earphone. Baca ayat al-Quran dan dalami maksudnya.Sebab Al-Quran ialah cahaya dariNya.In shaa Allah.Dan moga Allah kabulkan doa kamu.

  6. Firstly nak tanya,umur awk bape?dah bape thn doa kat Allah ape yg awk nak?mcm ni,Allah beri ape yg kite perlu bkn ape yg kita minta..solat awal waktu,rajin la solat dhuha,rajin2 la baca ‘lailla hailla anta subhanaka inni kuntum minal zolimin’ n keep doa..kadang Allah lmbtkan ape yg kita minta,yakin la inshaAllah Dia akn lpskan satu persatu doa kita tepat pd masanya..jgn putus harap.teruskan berdoa dlm setiap solat..

  7. enjoy saja apa yg ada . then tak da la pikir benda yg tak da. lagi pun berasa cukup tu nikmat. memang la kita tak boleh dapat semua yg kita mau. tu normal lah. tapi kalau ndak sangat harta dunia. amalkan ayat se ribu dinar selalu.

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