Being a teacher from teachers college ; I had dreams to become a lecturer . So I worked so that I could study in future but at the same time help my family . By god grace after. 5 years I entered IIUM through GOVERNMENT SCHOLARSHIP with half pay to do my degree and I did it and made my parents proud .
I didn’t stop here . I pursued my MASTERS 5 years later part time in UKM. I would drive from Temerloh , Pahang to UKM every week for my class . This was the period I realized how sad it was for a teacher in a secondary school to pursue a Masters . Why ? Discrimination started from the top .. daily pressure from principal complaining and making my life HELL . There was point I wanted to quit ; thanks to mom (RIP) was my drive and support . Sarcastic comments from colleagues on the waste of pursuing ; eventually there are right ; NO RECOGNITION TILL DATE !
I’ve graduated 3 years now … NOTHING ! No upgrades in pay in fact not even entitled to teach MUET even though with a M.ED IN TESL. BUT A TEACHER WITH A DEGREE IS ? than I realized ok I’m an INDIAN . They other who made it were MALAYS ! not being racist or prejudice but a victim of it . School politics ! Disappointment after disappointments ; I’m just 1 % out of millions of teachers in secondary .
Ultimatum came when my principal and heads can call me to their office and say I’m not entitled for APC ; I don’t believe in it as it is purely based on school politics and racism ! Why? Cause I wasn’t entitled Because I failed as I did MASTERS and didn’t contribute ? Hahhaha. Joke .! Why ? First time in history my school debate team represented the state of Pahang to the Nationals and I managed to produced the highest A ‘s for PMR and they even came me a certificate to signify this ; All these while I was doing my Thesis for Master ? I’m not entitled ? But a MALAY teacher that was on Materity LEAVE got the APC In my place ! Racism to the peak ! The real reason was because I’m an INDIAN ! Infact there are many Nons like me ! The ultimate joke was my principals gives me APC this year and tells that it is as a motivation for me to work better ? Like really? I told them THAT THEY CAN keep THEIR APC !
So at the moment I teach and continuously receive sarcasm and racism and prejudice ; Heartbroken ; why ? I could be overqualified but still can’t go any where but being passed and rote in the. Corner ; continued to be used to the husk but given zero In return .
I will finish my PHD ! Cause it’s my mother’s last wish ; nothing else matters .
– Tina
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