heh. Flawless ke kau

Assalamualaikum, aku dah nak dekat dua tahun ada masalah kulit. Jerawat di muka naik bagaikan cendawan tumbuh selepas hujan. My face was full of acne. No. I'm not telling lies. Hidup aku terus berubah 360 degree. Sebelum ni muka aku okay (kalau ada jerawat pun sebiji dua je) now i know the feeling of being judged by people just because of not having physically beautiful.

Dulu aku selalu rasa kurang dekat muka aku, hitam lah, gemuk lah, bulat lah, etc sampai lah Allah bagi betul-betul aku rasa apa tu balasan sebab tak bersyukur.

at this phase of my life, aku ada sorang je kawan yang tegur direct while pointing her finger to my face, dengan muka geli dia cakap something yang aku tak akan maafkan. Aku sakit hati sampai aku mula benci dengan muka sendiri and i don't even dare to look at my own face in the mirror. Pernah jugak aku doakan untuk dia dapat rasa apa yang aku rasa but then, i stopped sebab rasa tak baik buat macam tu. Cuma minta Allah balas yang setimpal je (the good one lah)

My confidence level dropped badly. I couldn't even talk to someone i used to by looking at her eyes. I covered up my face using a lot of powder and used a lot of products and never ending of hating my own face. It's terribly hard and those who never undergone this test probably would never understand.

For those yang ada kawan mempunyai masalah kulit (tak kira lah apa jenis sekali pun) jangan pernah tegur in a bad way dan jangan sesuka hati promote barang kecuali he or she requests for that. It kills in the inside if you did. Ingat jugak, once dia terasa dengan apa yang kau hina, doa dia Allah akan makbul kan tanpa hijab.

And now alhamdulillah muka aku dah mula baik tinggal parut and jerawat satu dua ketul. Dan sekarang aku mula bersyukur dengan apa Allah dah kurnia kan dekat aku. Setiap kali aku tengok muka aku dekat cermin sekarang, aku bersyukur walaupun perubahannya sikit. Walaupun dia ambil masa yang agak panjang, aku terima sebab bila dah makin baik ni, aku makin berterima kasih dekat Allah.

What I've learned from this test is, accept for what He has given you and don't undergrade others just because of their appearances because beauties lie in the inside. Accept it when some of your friends start to distance themselves from you, this is when you know your true friends and those bajet-bagus.

– Ayuni

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