Woman. 28. Unmarried. Engineer with total income 6 to 7 k per month. Living in an city,studio apartment. Far from family. Also living with a man dkat setahun 8bulan tanpa bernikah. Bila aku baca page ni sbny masalah sosial kt malaysia ni teruk cuma tidak disuarakan and girls pendam. Same to me. Masa tadika kakak aku sdiri main doktor2 dgn aku dlm bilik like experimenting my private part both in front and the back. Every weekend. Just dont realize when it stopped. She masturbate kan aku (ms tu tadika xtau wat masturbation). Ms tu egt main dokter2 n i bet kakak ak pun xtau pe yg die sdg buat kt aku. Just dat, mana die bljar or rs teringin buat cmtu. Worst part, ak buat kt adik aku pulak.aku suh die baring n aku pgg private part die sama mcm kakak ak buat. Once only. N i regret it my whole lifetime. Sbb ak pn xtau pe yg aku buat tu. But from dat, aku addicted to masturbation since age 6. Imagining things a child shud not imagine. All this, parents xtau.
Sehingga umur aku 22 i only have one bf. Mmg xpnh sentuh mnyentuh. Sgt menjaga. Time tu masih bodo xtau ttg sex. Sbb hidup ms tu for fun things n study sj and have lovely famly. Then he leaves me for another woman. After dat knal dgn lelaki yg kwn kenalkn. Umur dia 25. From him he force me to do this n dat n i learn it was a phone sex. I leave him immediately n we never met. Knal another guy. Everyday hntr gmbr n video lucah. We never met also. Im doing my degree dat time. But he open my world to sex world. Kesucian hati n fikiran aku da tercemar dgn maksiat.Grad with dean list on 24 n get permanent job. In my 25, was raped by my trusted cousin. He offers help n attention after dad died, but in return he rape n crushing my world. After 25years perthnkn.With this own feet i still stand up how hard it is. Balik kg kne tgk muka dia kot smpi slh sorg mati. From dat i even enter to dark world. From 25 to 27. Trying to find 'good man' that can guide me but end up got played by husband org n org bujang yg just nk sex shj, most men like dat. Mula2 je mcm baik n dgr mslh kita pay attention to us care us. One night stand is common to me.I dont want any commitment n relationship as i dont trust them. Yet dont feel any guilty. Living with my mix bf in my own apartment or sometime his apartment. 35y/old operation manager, very professional n kind to me. Sex is not his motive. But more on taking care of me. Never been so long in this kind of relationship. He proposed me for third time on february this year but still i rejected. I dont trust any man. N i dont like the idea of marriage nor divorcee. Klu husbnd org pun bole menggatal dgn pmpuan lain. Solat? Jarang. Bkn xtau dosa tp xnk buat. Puasa? Aku puasa, xberani tinggal. Quran? Aku bole baca tp aku xnk. Rukun iman islam? Xhafal tp tau. Blaming GOd for wat had happen? I dont know. Skrg aku xtau tujuan idup aku apa. Its already crushed from the beginning. Whats more to live?
– No name
Hantar confession anda di sini -> www.iiumc.com/submit
Doa pd diri agr diberi hidayah utk berubah..
Cerita ppuan yg dh tak dara ni semua klise je..semua kompem kne rape le tak rela le ape..pdhl sangap same sangap..puii!!bosan tol alasan diorang ni
Dear no name,, everyone hv the right to get the second chance.. sis,, u terpelajar.. u know which way u should go
Sy doakan agar sis diberikan hidayah olehNya..sempena bulan ramadhan yg mulia..mungkin sis nk berubah, tp xde sape yg nak sapot…nah, sy sapot sis..good luck sis…kadang2 Allah uji kita melalui kesusahan mcm sy kena jga anak sakit for another months dlm hospital..ada yg lain Allah bagi ujian ksenangan yg bleh mlupakn Dia…mcm2…ape2 pun, good luck sis..
Wahai kakakku syg, idk why i was tearing while reading your confess. I really hope that u can read my comment.
akak, akak sgt beruntung kerana masih ada sinar iman dlm hati akak. Akak tahu dosa pahala tp akak x de sumber yg mnguatkn akak untk berubh. Akak kita ada Allah Taala je akak. Itu je yg kita ada. Sekali sekala akak, crilah ssuatu yg bole beri ketenangan, lihat dan buka dan dgr Quran walau seminit, cuba ye itu je pmbntu. Akak i really feel you. may Allah grant u hidayah and shine your way akak. All i can do is keep praying for u from afar. I love u akak.
Ya Allah jangan engkau serahkan diri akak ini pd dirinya sendiri ya Allah, sunggh kami hanya hambaMu kami x mampu uruskn diri kami sndri melainkn dgn bantuanmu. :'(
Bagiku, lau nak mulakan hidup baru, mulakan dgn rajin ke masjid yg dihidupkan dgn ilmu dan ulamak. Satu masjid yg pernah aku jumpa Masjid Muadz di Setiawangsa. Sesuai sbb ramai wanita dtg situ dengar kuliah setiap minggu. Bole la wat kawan.
Gile punya melayu
its never late to restart again. try to make another obsession, for example bela kucing or whatever selain dari obsess terhadap lelaki.
life too precious to waste on something that give sin.
Perlukan cikgu bahasa inggeris
Step by step sis. Salah satu rukun islam sis dah jaga dah macam puasa kan. Insyaallah senang start yang lain. Sekarang cuba jaga syahadah pulak, macam mana? Cuba buat solat, perlahan lahan mulakan dengan yang lima waktu tu. Mula mula susah banyak tinggal takpe, janji mulakan. Bila dah ok solat, syahadah dan puasa insyaallah hati akan lebih tenang, walaupun tak banyak sedikit pun jadi. Takpe perlahan lahan, pedulikan pandangan orang lain ye. Bulan puasa ni paling baik nak mulakan :D
Sister..solatlah..jangan tinggal solat langsung..solat mencegah dari perbuatan mungkar..dan Allah Maha Pengampun,awak tahu,sekarang kena yakin! Semoga bertemu jalan yg benar
sis, pls i know u can do better…i hav no idea how to say…it happen…all of us do go thru shit…a lot of it actually…but with a baby step u can change…luv ur body luv ur soul…dont blame urself….please….whatever happen in our life, He still luv u n wanna u to come back to Him….put trust in Him…with luv, orked
Sis..just put inside Allah sebagai kekasih sis..ingt pd Dia n ikut perintah Dia..sis akan rs tenang..trust me..xde jln lain sis bole ikut selain mengingati Allah sbb Dia yg bg sis segala ujian2 ini n Dia jugalh tmpt myelèsaikn segala ujian ini..solat,puasa,baca quran jgn tinggal..i pn ms kecik pn main doctor2 mcm sis tp setelah besar n thu keburuknnye then i stop..
Siti Shairah Mnr sian
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To confessor: Remember this, Allah is the ONLY Helper and Guide.
Semua ni berlaku sbb manusia x kenal agama, awal hidup tu kena kenal Allah/agama, tp kita akhir2 ni x ajar anak2 kenal Allah, but abc, nyanyi2, artis.. Bila kenal Allah kena amal, then dari situ jatidiri terbentuk.. Majoriti org yg mcmni lebih susah nak buat jahat berbanding org yg tidak dididik melalui jalan awwaludin makrifatullah.. Nak kenal agama pulak bukan semberono, kena tahu latar belakang ustaz, jgn belajar dgn wahabi atau syiah atau yg seangkatan dgnnya, sori to say uia byk wahabi, huhu.. Sape2 yg tgh cuti tu boleh mai tadah kitab kat pondok pasir tumboh ni, blaja balik bab2 bersuci, akidah, bersih jiwa, (kitab unwanul falah / fekah) (misbahul munir / tauhid) (hidayah salikin / tasauf).. Kelas dah mula 7/6 habis 25/6, boleh tinggal kat pondok dgn bayaran rm30 bg lelaki, rm50 bg perempuan..
https://al-bakriah.com.my/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=1712:akademi-pondok-sempena-ramadhan-1437h-di-pondok-pasir-tumboh&catid=11:berita&Itemid=32
I feel you, dear.. Lost, alone, paranoid.. I’ve been through that for many years that I’ve stopped counting.. What you need right now is a few fat blunts.. Let’s hit them, fly high and chart our next direction..
From my experience, it’s easier to change n improve yourself when you move to a totally new place yg takde orang kenal you.
Mungkin sis boleh cuba pindah dok tempat lain and start a new life.
Doa banyak2 pada Allah.
Jangan putus asa ya sis.
If you need someone to talk to, PM je saya :)
Hmmm….take one step at a time…1st jgn tinggal serumah dgn lelaki bukan muhrim…u can do it…try dulu…nobody is perfect…but u need to work forward it..step by step…
What if you first find the meaning of your life? Why are been created and where r u gonna go after you die. Ask Allah to guide your heart. If possible, do visit countries with muslims are minority and live with the muslims there . Maybe you can find the true meaning of Islam there. Who knows.
The problems that you have encountered are the ways that God tells you that this world, dunya is not meant for you. Come to Allah. Fafirru ‘ilallah. Somehow this reminds me of the story of Rabiatul Adawiyah.
Im sure you are in the way of seeking the God’s love. Because you still have iman. You still have trust to Him. Deep in your heart.
Do not hang your heart to any man.. Or good man. This is the way Allah tells you to put your heart and hope only to Him.
Have a time alone, and you will find yourself. Do the right thing. Try engage with volunteerism. Mercy Malaysia or any NGOs. Helps the needy. Hugs the kids. Give them love….and you will find your self. :)
Banyak tu gaji….huhu
Jena dengar lagu aliff satar- kesempatan kedua
so u r going to died alone and died for nothing. u r not bad because of what had happen but u bad because u r paranoid. dind urself find n ur creator young lads.
Nursha’im AzmanNor Shafiqah Balqis
Dude, get help. U cant help urselves, so move ur ass and get help.
Been there. Done that. Not saying aku dah jd alim ulamak but at least, dont give up
Kita semua adalah pendosa. Dr ape yg sy faham, awk hilang harapan. Harapan utk ke syurga. My suggestion is to read a book from hilal asyraf-kita pendosa. Tiada dosa di dunia ini yang tidak diampunkn Allah. Sesungguhnya cinta Allah kpd hambanya adlh lebih agung dr mana2 cinta di dunia. Berharaplah dan teruskan mengharap syurga dan cinta Allah.
Bila kekasih mula merajuk
Bagaimanakah dapat ku pujuk
Hebatnya cinta banyak dugaannya
Kau tak percaya yang aku setia
Bukan niatku bermesra dengannya
Kerna ianya teman biasa
Bila kekasih mula berpaling
Tak perlu lagi bertentang mata
Ucapan sekian lama untuknya
Dapat menunduk setiap bicara
Kerna cintaku hanya untukmu
Hanya untukmu
Belum puasku mengecapi redup asmara
Kini cintaku dihiris dengan perasaan
Pada zahirnya engkau curiga
Walau dijiwa terlalu setia
Apa erti cinta tanpa sefahaman
Jangan dipertaruhkan cinta dan perasaan
Sehingga hatimu terluka
Padaku kaulah insan
Senyumanmu penawar jiwa
Kekasihku… Lupakanlah…
Usah biarkan aku sengsara
Bila kekasih aku merajuk
Adakah mungkin engkau meluncur
Hebatnya cinta banyak dugaannya
Rindu dan dendam bukan permainan
Kerna cintaku hanya padamu
Hanya padamu…
Apa kata yang tak nak tu pusing jadi nak. Tengok apa jadi. Lepas tu lepas la. Memori hitam. Kadang kadang bila ada harta, ada kesenangan itu juga ujian untuk kita. Semoga Allah merahmati kamu. InsyaAllah
Apa kata yang tak nak tu pusing jadi nak. Tengok apa jadi. Lepas tu lepas la. Memori hitam. Kadang kadang bila ada harta, ada kesenangan itu juga ujian untuk kita. Semoga Allah merahmati kamu. InsyaAllah
Whats more to live?dik..tau tak byk yg Allah dah bagi awk..Allah bagi awk kepandaian..dia bagi rezeki awk dpt kerja bagus..with good income..go back to Him..seek Allah..thats the only advice that i can give..
Hi confessor. Kalau nk share story boleh dm saye.
Allah tu Maha Baik. Kita manusia yg ingkar ni pun, Allah still bg hidup selesa. Income 6-7k. Ada pekerjaan. Allahu. Baiknya Allah.
Tp tu la.. 1 ja yg xdapat.. ketenangan. Yg tu kita kena turn back to Allah. InsyaAllah bahagia dunia dan akhirat
Dear sis no name.. believe it that ‘hidayah’ milik Allah.. when u wrote this confession, masa tu Allah dh ketuk pintu hati sis. Sy doakan doakan sis.. jika dosa kita setinggi langit pun, Allah Maha Pengampun dan Penerima Taubat.. May Allah ease everything for u n us to seek His Blessing and Jannah. Ramadhan Kareem..
Tiada insan suci yg tidak mempunyai masa silam dan tiada insan berdosa yg tidak mempunyai masa depan. Bertabahlah sis. Lupakan shja kisah sedih seolah2 ia mimpi yg tidak benar. Bnyak org lain yg punya kisah yg sma dan berjaya berubah. Jgn putus asa dgn diri sendiri. Gudluck dear..
Allah syg org yg berdosa pastu bertaubat..kasih syg Allah mendahului murkaNya.
Ahmad Shukri
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Dalam ap yg ditulis ni ad yg cube disembunyikan…jauh dlm sudut hati sis…sis nk bnde tu..dn sis sedar bnde tu wujud…tp sis x strong nk go find bnde tu istri…sis prlukan agama dn mjlis ilmu…kt situ mngkin trjwb soaln sis…sis mencri ketenangan dalam diri sebenarnya..dn hnya sis boleh jmpe bila sis brsngguh cri
Ain Shafika
Usaha untuk berubah? Still salahkan god? Wew
If you feel your life is full of despair and you’re constantly committing major sins, then keep praying. Don’t ever give up. Ramadan is the month of Mercy. Maybe that once sincere prayer you make can change your life for the better. Maybe that one sincere sujood with tears in your eyes when you’re hungry and thirsty Allah could move mountains and oceans for you. He is capable of ANYTHING. All you need to do is reach out sincerely.
Saya doakan semoga Allah lembutkan hati saudari, bukakan hati saudari, didik hati saudari agar dpt menerima ajaran islam sebenarnya semoga Allah bantu saudari untuk keluar dr masalah yg saudari hadapi..sy yakin jika saudari percaya sepenuhnya dgn Allah, letak harapan dan doa pada Allah, inshaAllah He will take care of u, He will show u the right path…may Allah always bless u and ease ur journey..amiin
Choose to live alone. Without man.. come on…. you are rich girl.. don’t blame Allah… muhasabah diri… you have time for your self if you live alone… love your self first…
do the right thing,lepas kn mse lalu demi mse hadapan…hidup utk ke arah depan,bkn ke arah belakang
Banyaknya gaji sis,jeles saya.
Allah kan ada sayang,mengadulah. Pintu taubat masih terbuka