Assalamualaikum & hi. first of all a very big thanks to admin for approving my story and secondly, piggy back is not the only issue here. aku takde idea untuk tajuk and that explains piggy back.
i’ll just introduce myself as I or AKU so as to make things easier & tak serabutkan kepala aku untuk cari nama samaran. to actually write this story it took me and my friend a solid 1 year because we were thinking whether or not it would impact the person that we are directing this story to. i am not from UIA tbh it’s just that if i were to use my uni’s confession platform it’ll be too obvious.
so, this story is about a friend of ours. dia ni boleh dikirakan senior even though we’re in the same year tetapi disebabkan jurang umur yang berbeza so dia dikira senior la. however we’d never treated her as a superior, memang panggil nama je. No kak2 because she insisted to not be called kakak. let’s just say her name is Lily (nama samaran sahaja). Lily ni my housemate for two semesters. we grew close la satu rumah en and we befriended each other’s friends. so basically, my friends memang rapat dengan si Lily ni. alhamdulillah, my friends & i (Lily juga) managed to stay in college throughout our years in university big thanks to our involvement with the college activities.
kawan dengan Lily ni memang seronok sebab dia ni boleh dikatakan sempoi ah dia ada banyak pengalaman since she’s older. i love listen to stories and she’s the talker so memang banyak sangat la dia cerita pasal pengalaman hidup dia. she came from quite a conservative family and she used to go to sekolah agama. everyone pernah pergi sekolah agama but what i mean is that sampai sekolah menengah dia sekolah agama (maahad). her family also boleh dikatakan orang kuat agama, so, she is well equipped dengan pendidikan agama. lepas SPM, parents dia hantar dia ke Indonesia untuk belajar tasawwur(diploma) dan maybe continue degree in tasawwur and come back to malaysia jadi pengajar/guru. but she stopped until diploma je because her family thought it would be better kalau ilmu yang dia tuntut tu bukan sekadar ilmu akhirat je tapi belajar juga ilmu dunia. so she came back to malaysia, ambil STPM and sambung business degree dekat one of the local universities. i was really amazed by her family’s brilliant decision sebab ye la, dua- dua ilmu harus balance & tidak berat/lebihkan mana-mana satu. dalam tempoh perkenalan i can say that i was her problem solver, her psychologist because dia ni ada banyak ups and downs nya. she told me that she used to have a boyfriend but he ended up cheated on her for some other girl. the boyfriend studied overseas so he couldn’t handle LDR. bila dia cerita dia ada boyfriend kat kitorang, a large number macam terkejut sebab someone from her background pun ada boleh ada boyfriend. for me there’s nothing wrong with that as long as jaga la batas2 nya. aren’t we allowed to love and be loved? masa masuk universiti Lily was boyfriend-free but after a few months ada orang “melamar”. so she was no longer boyfriend-free.
this is where the real story begins. i had never actually ada kawan yang elok akhlak & pegangan agamanya ada boyfriend. so i imagined that it’ll be something pure and sangat terjaga. but certainly it was just an imagination. i have no intention untuk memburukkan orang “alim”, “tudung labuh”, “pak lebai” or “orang kuat agama”. the thing is yang buatnya seorang dua tapi yang terkena tempiasnya ramai. ive been a fan of iium confession so i could see that there are A LOT of stories yang nampak macam condemning people of that group. some of them might be real, so of them may not. and it’s up to u guys to think whether the stories i am about to tell you benar atau rekaan semata mata. but to me and my friends ini adalah benar. WE JUST DON’T HAVE THE BALLS TO ADVICE HER, TBH. we tried many other alternative untuk tegur dia but secara discreete but NONE. DIA SIKIT PUN TAK TERASA. SIKIT PUN TAK TERKESAN. SIKIT PUN TAK CUBA NAK UBAH.
Ok sambung cerita. dia ada boyfriend and boyfriend dia ni Jack. Jack ni lain course tapi satu kolej so that’s how they met la sebenarnya. i’m just gonna say this ok: Lily and Jack tak pernah jaga ikhtilat. done saying. i am disapointed at first. really really disappointed. i looked up to her. dia selalu cerita hal hal agama masa kalau ada perjumpaan kelab and masa kitorang satu rumah dulu. so when i saw what she did i was mad because that was not the lily that i knew. memang berbeza bila dia dengan boyfriend. and the sad thing is all of the act memang takde niat untuk sorok-sorok. PUBLIC. semua orang tahu, semua bercerita. the first time that i actually witnessed their extreme behavior was when we were in club meeting. and that time there weren’t many people yet. dia diantara orang yang terawal la sampai. i think sebelum dia sampai tu dia ada jatuh somewhere so kaki dia macam injured. to my disbelief her boyfriend that douche boleh pergi urut kaki si Lily. kalau berurut tapi berlapik pun dah something ni kan pulak tak berlapik. i was like whyyy are you doing thissssss??? i didn’t say it out loud. i was a real chicken but what could i say? that was my first time seeing things like dibuat oleh orang yang memang, simpang kita tak pernah terfikir pun dia akan buat macam tu. so what i did was i offered to urut her la because that was the only decent thing that i could do to stop them from doing what they were doing. then, dalam perjumpaan, we were sitting in circle because meeting. besides we didn’t have meeting table. the scenery of that meeting was in fact an eyesore & an embarrassment. she was leaning against Jack throughout the meeting & i prayed to God someone is brave enough to actually tegur perbuatan diorang la. then this one dude tegur but nampak macam buat lawak la but message cross. he said, “ey ey ey..haram2. apa ni. ke dah kahwin?” and she laughed and was like “ouch” & stopped leaning for few minutes but continued to do so lepas tu. we’ve done our parts so at that time it was totally up to her untuk sedar sendiri.
there are many incidents after that. incident? i’m not sure if that’s the right word. basically seeing them menyandar-nyandar, bermanja manja tu dah jadi satu benda yang biasa di tonton. baik dekat cafe, dalam kelas (kalau sub universiti macam titas and etc.) perjumpaan, lepak bawah blok and dekat mall. just imagine the amount of people asking me if Lily and Jack tu husband and wife. dekat uni normal to find married couple so they thought when there are people showcasing that kind of behavior then maybe they are married. and also imagine the faces and the reaction of people when i said “no. diorang couple je”. ada yang tanya kenapa tak tegur. bukan senang nak tegur orang yang lebih tua, background agama yang lebih solid. siapa aku? siapa kawan kawan aku nak tegur soal ikhtilat? solat pun kami ada tinggal. ikhtilat dengan kawan kawan pun ada juga yang tak berjaga. we are in no position to advice or to tell what’s right and what is not. Lily pula jenis yang senang sangat terasa dan tak boleh terima teguran dengan hati yang terbuka.
one other big incident happened dekat kawan aku. Lily and some of my friends pergi taman tema air (pandai-pandai la teka taman tema mana). i didn’t follow because i went back home. cuti mid sem la katakan. balik dari tempat tu kawan aku, Sarah (nama samaran) terus call aku. mengadu. “weh the dude piggy backed her masa dalam kolam. i didn’t know how to tegur. amin (her boyfriend) terkejut beruk. kawan aku ingat dia dah kahwin.” tipu kalau kata tak terkejut. isu dia berpegang, bersandaran ni aku dengan kawan aku dah biasa but sampai piggy back sumpah too much. what were they thinking? what were you thinking, huh, Lily? and Jack u are the man. the leader. why didn’t you stop her or say anything? kau pun seronok je dia buat macam tu. seriously memang frustrating. i don’t know why were we so affected by this thing but it did. it affected the friendship in such a great length.
orang asyik mengata cara berpakaian dia. dia berpurdah but dah buka, dulu tudung labuh sekarang dah tak and she wore socks before but now dah tak. to be frank, i don’t give a damn about those stuffs. itu hak dia dia nak berpakaian macam mana as long as dia tak bertelanjang. tapi hubungan lelaki perempuan ni aku memang tak boleh terima ESPECIALLY kalau perbuatan ni dilakukan oleh orang yang elok latar belakang agama dia. teruk teruk dia belajar sebelum ni. takkan takde satu pun yang melekat dekat hati. solat tak tinggal, Alhamdulillah. tapi yang lain lain tu?
after a year, Lily and Jack punya relationship was rocky. tambah pula Lily dah berbaik baik dengan ex boyfriend dia. she had never moved on from John, her ex BF we can say cinta mati la. dia memang sayang Jack but in my opinion she used Jack sebagai tempat untuk bermanja because she told us dia memang tak boleh hidup tanpa peneman. with John in the picture, Lily and Jack’s relationship memang slow2 losing its sparks. i was a bit angry because she basically CHEATED on him. she wasn’t being fair. memang Jack ni kadang kadang macam tak understanding sangat because she used to have girlfriends yang tak clingy 24/7. so this kind of relationship is basically a new thing for him. bila bergaduh, Lily cari John and Jack ni pun dungu sikit tak faham bila si Lily tu marah or terasa dengan dia. Kadan kadang sampai weeks tak cakap. tapi si lily lepas berminggu tak cakap boleh lagi “i’m fine.i have John”. dia memang open dengan “relationship” yang dia ada dengan si John ni so most of us tahu pasal their relationship. satu hari, ditakdirkan Allah, Lily saw Jack was having lunch with an anon girl dekat cafe faculty Lily. kebetulan pula waktu tu they were sharing each other’s food. Kecewa la si Lily ni and buat pula that evening Jack’s roommate/friend bagitau Lily that Jack has been contacting a girl. junior. she was a wreck that day. crying her eyes out dekat kitorang semua. saying sampai hati Jack buat aku macam ni. i was sad for her and macam pelik at the same time because she told us before this that she had no more feeling towards Jack and she is keeping the relationship merely to avoid hurting him. one of my friends was trying to be blunt by asking “haritu kata dah tak suka. so tak patutla rasa sedih. this could be a solid excuse to ask for a break up.” lagi la Lily menangis. she said that they are still a couple kenapa curang?? dalam hati i could only conclude that this is Karma. we told her that maybe the girl was a friend. tanya Jack dulu jangan main decide suka2 hati. two days after that, turns out that the girl was Jack’s adik susuan. our junior dekat fakulti. dia ok la lepastu but their relationship resume kepada biasa. tiada rasa sayang macam dulu. she just nak reassurance yang dia tidak ditinggalkan/ dicurangi macam dulu. she still contact John until now.
we’ve graduated tapi belum pergi graduation ceremony lagi la.. Insyaallah hujung tahun ni. i have no idea what happen between Lily and Jack. but i hope that she’s already ended what’s left of their relationship. no more tergantung tak bertali.
What i can conclude from my experience dengan this whole situation is that, Lily culture shock. she rather die than admit dia culture shock. maybe masa dia dengan John, her parents were around and ada banyak mata mata keliling dia so she may not be able to do the things shes been doing with Jack. Masa di Indonesia things like this are not allowed, she said. dekat madrasah sana kalau dah suka terus minta kahwin. so bila masuk universiti no one to watch, freedom la katakan, she could finally buat apa yang dia nak without having marriage as the final resolution.. kadang kadang diri sendiri tak nampak kesalahan yang diri sendiri buat until someone has to point out the truth to your face baru sedar. we were her friends but we didn’t even try to advice her personally. maybe sebab kami guna social media atau kiasan, and that thing memang truly tak sampai ke dia. tu salah kami. tetapi as a grown woman with abundance of knowledge of akhirat, petty things like ikhtilat, relationship, honesty should not be a problem. tapi kita manusia yang buat silap. we are not perfect.
Again, i’m writing this story not to embarrass and humiliate “alim” people. i need to let this out. i still don’t have the courage to talk about this stuff with Lily. i really hope she read this. and to anyone out there yang berada dalam situasi yang sama dan juga terasa pedas, saya berharap pengakuan/confession yang tidak seberapa ini sampai kepada anda. saya minta maaf jika menyinggung tapi manusia selagi tak disinggung selagi tu tak berubah.
Wassalam
Peace out
– Blackbeard
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