Assalamualaikum. Thanks admin if u guys sudi post this sharing post. Dua post aku dah selamat posted dlm page. Post pertama aku if ada yang pernah baca is Cara Aku which aku cerita mcm mana nak tackle kids dalam kelas. Basically sharing the psychological and teaching methods stuff with novice teachers and parents. My second post was Salah Serba Salah. Post ni just luahan rasa aku about certain isu kat sekolah. You know how things got overwhelming and you CANNOT handle another thing coming without pouring something out of your chest. Sakit pedih and sedih all at once. Don’t get me wrong, aku bukan merungut or tak bersyukur. Believe me, I’m glad dorg percaya aku smpi tahap boleh open up their family problem. Mcm aku ckp sblm ni, aku tersepit. Later aku explain why. Ada satu komen tu on point gila, dia ckp based on my confession, aku sama mcm dia. Species yang hati lembut(but i call myself hati tisu) and her advice is to ignore certain things as aku tak accounted pun untuk settlekan masalah murid-murid aku. Tak mungkin mampu handle every single thing pun. Clear my mind, take things easy, then only I will be at peace. Ada org prnh ckp cmni kat aku. Aku setuju sgt but nak change habit and mindset tu payah gila kan. Ramai jgk suggest aku dengar je masalah budak-budak ni. At least aku up date dgn problem dorg. Ya, itu lah yg aku dah buat since 6 years ago. I am the listener and aku tak kisah pun sebab aku actually care about them. But if you think listening tak tinggalkan kesan pada listeners out there, I beg to differ.
Anak Emas
Kesan dia pada aku, bila murid aku percaya untuk spill something big pada aku, next day she/he expect yang dia jadi anak emas. So bila kita strict and punish them, tarik muka and ada yang merajuk. Then my sarcasm game will be triggered. Kahkah. Kids biasanya merajuk sekejap je. Tapi perangai dia tu akan jadi ripple effect pada kawan sekelas yg lain. Ada yg akan try merajuk mcm tu. I never fond of manja kids. I reminded my kids selalu. We play and learn in class but never get attached to me.
Disturbing Fact
I mean if murid yg meluahkan tu darjah 3, the updates of his/her problem akan lagi banyak episodlah selagi family dia tak settlekan problem or dia tak habis sekolah. Kdg-kdg rasa mcm bdk2 ni tgh cerita psl episodes of akasia which is not a good thing. I find it very disturbing. I mean how can kids know so much about adults’ problem? Kecik-kecik dh terpaksa matang sebelum usia.
Kifarah
Aku paaaaaling takut yg ni. Allahu. Face it. Terdesak macamana pun these kids, semua yg diceritakan adalah aib family. Aku dh letak diri aku pada tempat budak-budak ni. That’s why aku stay and listen. And aku jugak dh letakkn diri aku pada tempat mak ayah dorg. Tu sbb sometimes aku suruh dorg jgn cerita pada sesiapa. Even me. Their parents will definitely rasa malu and sedih if dorg tau ank dorg buka cerita psl family. Takkan kita tak sedih anak kita lebih open pada stranger dari kita darah daging sendiri. One more thing yg aku risau is our kifarah. What if sebab aku tadah je telinga dengar masalah dorg aka aib dorg, one day Allah uji dengan hal yg sama dengan anak-anak aku. I will be broken to pieces.
Anger Management
Believe me, budak-budak yg ada family prob ni dorg jadi hot tempered and attempt benda-benda pelik. Selalu cari pasal or cepat je naik tangan walaupun benda kecil. Pengalaman aku dalam kelas, one boy asks the class about a pencil he found. Tiba-tiba another boy layang penumbuk kat dia, throw a middle finger at me and trying to kick a girl before aku hadang(of course aku lah yg hadap penerajang dia. Best ‘sgt’). I was like…what the fish was that for? Kita cakap tentang budak 10 tahun. Bayangkan berapa bnyk stress yang dia compressed untuk act without proper reason like that. Apa yg ada dlm fikiran dia? He can’t read or write. Refuse to belajar pun. Suka cari pasal, curi is like a habit for him. Yg org tak tahu, he always been beaten by his father. One of my nasihat for him is “ayah tetap ayah, baik or buruk. Hargai sebelum terlambat.” Aku pernah hambat dia pakai penyapu jugak sebab asyik mencuri je. Cita-cita nak jadi makenik. “Nanti kalau kereta teacher rosak, saya tolong teacher. Sy buat free utk teacher.” Skrg dia dah masuk sekolah menengah. Pernah dengar cerita org kampung dia kantoi pecah masuk nak rompak rmh org. Sedih aku rasa but everytime he saw me, dia menyengih and wave at me. Haha.
Ya, ni lah dilemma yg aku simpan dalam hati but aku cuba la usahakan cadangan korg. Minta tolong korg doakan dosa-dosa aku diampunkan..
– Teacher
Hantar confession anda di sini -> www.iiumc.com/submit