I come from a troubled family.
Hmm. Life circumstances have made me a bitter person.
Jadikan aku pemarah. Tak boleh tolerate perangai orang. Orang pun tak boleh tolerate temper aku. Tapi nature aku mmg jenis yg kasar. I rarely show love, but when I do, it's tough love. Kadang2 aku marah/bebel bukan serius pun. Main2 je. Tapi, senang je orang nak kecik hati. Hmm. Orang yg rapat pulak tu. I thought they knew me better. Sedih tau.
Aku tak boleh nak hipokrit. Ni la aku. So i thought, accept me as i am, or leave.
Sbb tu, skrg aku prefer to go solo. Aku taknak rapat dgn sesiapa. So i cant hurt anyone. Tapi kdg2 sakit jugak. Humans. We are not made to live in seclusion. We sometimes yearn for some company. Hmm. Boyfriend pun takde. Well, in the end, i just have God with me.
(nota kaki: Aku bukan nak mengungkit. Tapi aku rasa, walaupun aku ni digelar kasar, keras hati, jahat, etc, aku sebenarnya baik je deep inside. Aku suka tolong orang. Tapi org tak nampak tu. Diorg nmpk part aku baran je)
This is purely a confession. To let it out. Not really asking for opinions or solutions. But if anyone wants to offer nice words, you're more than welcome to.
– #loneranger